I have a deep love and gratitude for the women at SonRays Ministries. If it was not for the unconditional love and compassion I received, I am not sure what my life would be. Before my time spent with the ministry, I did not believe God loved me because I had made so many poor choices. On the outside, I would smile and laugh to get through the day, but inside I was not expecting anything good to happen to me because I did not feel I deserved it. I would go through the motions and show up to church, but I was empty on the inside.
I had heard about SonRays and seen their flyers all over church many times, but I did not think anything could help me, so I did not pay much attention. Proverbs teaches that God determines our steps. No matter how far I ran, my past ultimately caught up to me, and the spiritual weight became overwhelming. I remember lying in bed, crying and begging God to please still love me, even though I did unspeakable things to myself and others. I had done many things that I was not proud of, and the shame and guilt were getting to be more than I could bear on my own. God sent me to SonRays so that I did not have to.
The ministry helped me see the negative emotions and the self-degradation was not from God. I had encountered the physical challenges from my past decisions and not punishments from God, which I had believed in for so many years. I was shown that God still loved me, and nothing I could do would change that. The lessons I have learned have helped me grow spiritually and emotionally. I had many opportunities to witness what a godly woman was in real life, and it’s because of this ministry. The women I met at SonRays have blessed me more than I can ever communicate. Because of my gratitude, I use what I learned to encourage others.